airplanes

I want to stop complaining on how little time i get from dy . I want to stop being self - centered and only thinks about my wants and need . I prolly should stop being like this right now , right this instant . I do things which he dislikes , promised to stop doing it but yet still doing it . Just whats gotten into me ?! Wake up edaa ! If this is how you want to be behave , he'll leave you for good . Do you actually want that ? What happened to the old you ? The old you who sticks to one and knows the meaning of losing someone you love ? The old you who doesnt dares to contact other except for your very own ? Where has she gone too ?! The ans for all that ; I DONT FUCKING KNOW ! After the deep scars i had , i never knew the meaning of hurt any longer . I never knew what im doing is right or wrong . Everything just gone haywire . I'm sorry dy , i never meant to hurt you . I never meant to be this way . Im trying to change but you arent there to help me out . Who else should i seek if its not you ? But youre just too busy , not noticing me here struggling to get back on track . You only see me showing my attitude . Behind those , what do i actually seek for ? Your attention ! Can i pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars . I could really use a wish right now . I need you badly dy but you just wont notice it *saddestface* D':