sugar baby

No other being can fully understand what another has lived through. We can only offer compassion, support, and the gift of seeing beyond the trauma to the being. Animals experience traumatic stress too, so as we humans. I could vividly remember the dead cat i witnessed right with my own bare eyes. One day it was so weak and the next day you see , it is filled with red ants. White tongue sticking out and frozen body. The most forlorn incident ever. D:

Let's move along now. Been meeting love♥ for 3 consecutive weeks already! OMG, break record okay! Today initial plan was not to meet since he just came back from fishing with his family however that cute boy text me up and asked me to meet up at his place. Therefore, me & seri headed down to his crib. Coincidencely, seri's grandma lived at the same block. Such small world indeed :D Slacked while watching tekken till 8.30pm. Cabbed home since seri got extra bux, besides shes in a hurry to get back home. Not to forget, today played pool with seri and i won almost all games *bigwidesmile* i likeeeeee. Now, i want to try and beat love♥ in pool. (Y)

definitely cant wait for tomorrow !! Watching fireworks with someone i love is what ive been wanting for my entire life and finally with god's willing, am able to do so with love♥, seri & mooore. This shall be very anticipating i guess *jumpsaround* Love♥ is having his handsome sleep. Meanwhile, im here trying to get myself to sleep and get ready for tomorrow. Speaking of tomorrow, i swear i dont have any freaking idea what to wear. Mygod, can someone please help me out here? :d

Sidetrack; I wish i can get this feeling off. I wish i can get rid of this paranoia. Its such a great burden on my shoulder. Trying by all means and ways to get it off & make things better. In addition, ive been endlessly accusing love♥ for something which i reckon he actually even did it. But please, dont make me look bad here. am not the one to be blame, its the guys. Theyre the one who made me have so little confidence and self - esteem. Despite all those 'mantras', advices from friends and such, things still remain the same. And yes, i swear i hate it too. Maybe, just maybe i need some time to get things right. I know love♥ had been so patient towards me, putting up with all my nonsensical attitudes. Therefore, i thank you love for enduring these ugly attitude of mine. Like what i said, i dont care what they said 'cause im in love with you khairul anwar ♥♥

Goodnight people & sweetdream love .